February 2012
1 post
Shoots.
http://d24w6bsrhbeh9d.cloudfront.net/photo/2281720_460s.jpg ^How I feel about a lot of “photographers” LOL
January 2012
2 posts
Drive.
Sometimes life is just about making the wrong turns in the right direction <3
Think it Through
Is what I should do, but I think my heart already knows );
Resolute.
It’s weird to think I used to look like that, and in my perspective, I thought I was pretty. If not pretty, at least decent. I weighed under 100 lbs my whole high school career, and more often than not, I was the girl that people whispered “I bet she doesn’t eat,” and “damn, she’s hella skinny, she needs to eat more.” Every time I went over to...
December 2011
6 posts
Bella
Kristen Stewart. I don’t know why she seems to get these amazing leading roles (like Snow White in Snow White & The Huntsmen) because I seriously can’t stand her. I can’t stand her voice, her expressionless face, and the horror that was Twilight. I mean she might be a great person, vegetarian, philanthropist, whatever, for all I care. But I am truly and genuinely upset that...
Snap!
I could get lost forever in an art/photo gallery, because there is just something intrinsically and spiritually beautiful about good art. To be honest, it’s hard for me to tell the difference between a photo taken by a true photographer compared to a photo taken by an amateur. I’ve wanted to take a class in art history/photography for a while, but I haven’t had the chance or time...
Rofl
Person who is my friend on FB: “Thank god I pray to Buddha every night to keep me safe!”
Haha yeah. Thank God.
Betrayal.
It’s strange how the people who you love the most have the most power to hurt you. If some stranger came up to you and told you that you were ugly, you’d be offended, but more irritated as opposed to hurt. When someone you love tells you that part of your personality hurts them, it really gets to you. Just one comment, one phrase can rip you apart and you stand back and go,...
Horizon.
There are brighter days on the horizon.
November 2011
4 posts
Done
You were the one who didn’t appreciate me. You were the one who never complimented me. You were the one who never said thank you enough. You were the one who I tried TOO hard for. You were the one who I hated and loved. You were the one who had flaws I tried to fix. You were the one who had flaws I tried to ignore. You were the one. But I was the one to leave.
Holidays.
Sometimes it’s hard to believe that you’ll ever be happy. You feel this momentary joy, this excitement that pervades your bones- and then it’s gone. What you thought was a solid wall was really just an illusion. It’s so damn hard to keep a relationship consistent, but then again, what’s a relationship without some ups& downs? Well, I know the truth now. I have...
Gift.
So I offered you my heart, I said: I’ll be with you until you’re dead. You can count on me to love you more, I’d give you what you bargained for. I’ll cook, I’ll clean, I’ll make you smile I promise you, I’m worth your while. Your hands will never be alone I am yours, and yours to hold. And you looked at me in the knee-deep snow And you said No.
Lost.
I really don’t know what I’m doing anymore. One day, reality is going to hit me and I’m going to freak the fck out. I just know it.
September 2011
1 post
20.
Happy 1yr&8months :]
August 2011
3 posts
Vines.
I have planted my roots, firmly. And they grow around you, around your torso. More than water, you are my life as I am yours. We feed off each other, and grow and grow. We intertwine together, my hands and yours.
I know nothing of the outside world, When I’m with you.
Please.
Some girls just try too hard. For goodness sakes, you live in Milpitas, not Vegas. Calm yourself down.
July 2011
1 post
Sbux.
The usual Orange Mango Black Tea, Sweetened. It is hot. Brownie fail today, but that’s okay! Try again and again, Keep Moving Forward!
June 2011
7 posts
Brighter.
I feel as if a thousand lightbulbs have been melted, and poured into your skin, so that when you laugh you glow. It isn’t as if I haven’t said so before- but I’ll say it again. You are in my veins. Close to the skin, within me. and I really feel you, you burn hotter than wax d ri ppi ng down my throat. You enclose me in your...
Father.
My dad has always been an interesting guy. Though my parents went through a divorce I was never THAT angry at either of them. They are and always will be polar opposites: my dad, an Americanized man who still holds strong to his beliefs and my mom, who is just..Asian. Since Father’s Day is coming up, I thought I’d post something to remind me just how awesome my dad is :]
1. Several...
Tangible.
Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m missing something. I don’t know what it is and in certain moments, I lose the clarity I thought I had such a firm grasp on. My original plan was to learn the rules, mechanics, and the beauty of English and go on to teach it in a foreign place where language would be loved and appreciated. Now I’m not as sure of what I want to do, but after...
Success.
Must.
Not.
Fail.
Drivers.
Test.
Popcorn.
Just finished watching Howl’s Moving Castle. I feel like I would have enjoyed it more if Howl didn’t look like a girl, LOL.
Next: Princess Mononoke Kiki’s Delivery Service (my childhood!!!!) My Neighbor Totoro (Also my childhooodddd)
So yeah, that’s my summer.
Bummerr
Summer bummer. I work 4 days a week, which isn’t so bad, but as the whole world probably knows (and also does), I like to pass my time before work relaxing, eating, and watching countless TV shows. Unfortunately, it is now summer time and that means all my favorite shows have had their season finales, and it’s time to wait for the summer season to kick off. I really like...
May 2011
2 posts
Sucker.
I keep having the feeling that I have something to do, or need to do. Then I sit and contemplate that feeling and remember “Holy shit, it’s summer! There’s no homework!” And I feel a little bit better. But then that feeling comes back again. So I know that I need to 1. Practice driving around Fremont DMV so I can finally get my effing license and stop driving around...
Lime in the Coconut
Holy crap. That was a happy/really really sad episode of Bones. TEAR.
April 2011
3 posts
Smooth.
I love EOS lip balm. I take it out to play with during class and people always point and ask me, “what is that?”
When I reveal that it is lip balm, they are astonished.
I love you, EOS.
Nailz.
First attempt at gradient nails…epic fail. I wish I were as ambidextrous as those nail artists out there so of course one hand always looks better than the other. This was my first try at the gradient nail style, where the color fades from light to dark and vice versa. I couldn’t figure out what colors to do and it took me the longest time to even get them remotely okay. They’ll...
Chalky
Dusty hair and white fingertips charcoal eyes, you’ve got this way about you that says to me: I am who I am.
Painted skin and chalky lips, fingers that create and dismiss, your knees are bruised from kneeling but your murals are beautiful.
Your other half is your brush, You breathe life- I know that much. They don’t sell for millions, no but you’re worth it. So paint on, my...
March 2011
1 post
Lasers.
I like Lupe Fiasco’s new CD. I recently surprised my boyfriend by buying it for me, and I surprised myself by enjoying quite of a few songs on his album. GT and I especially like “Til I Get There,” cause that song has deep meaning, mannn!
Lasers, pew pew!
February 2011
3 posts
Beautiful.
Have I ever whispered to you? when your eyes are closed and you’re asleep, that to me you are like a garden with hidden treasures I’d like to keep. You’ve planted your roots within my hands and have grown before my eyes. Blossoming every minute every day, always with a new surprise. You drop your words like petals, quick and softly to the floor and color my world with different...
Golden.
I am adoring this weather- it sucks that it’s supposed to rain on Monday. I like it when it’s sunny with a bit of breeze. It makes me feel so happy to be alive and existing in a time where everything is all chill. School is progressing (however slowly), and family is happy and there are nothing but good times ahead- I hope! Whenever I get mad or upset about something I just go over in...
Air.
Breathless between whispers I say to you, “Don’t go.” socks hidden underneath covers, your toes- they barely show. Valleys and dips, the curve of your back pulling further away, I say stay.
Furtive glances from phone to door, you slip on your shoes and smile. fix the watch to your wrist, I say, “Stay a while?” Bathroom lights flicker on and —- you are washed in...
January 2011
2 posts
Fires.
Burned my lips upon your cheek- You were way too hot, I couldn’t s p e a k.
Do you ever wonder if you could give me back those seconds? The ones I spent staring into your eyes. Don’t lie.
You feel it too, me and you. You can’t deny the fire. Is it desire? ripping deeply throughout your skin You’ll find withmein.
Oh, you’re simply gorgeous the way your fingers...
Scent.
I love the smell of you. Burying my face into the side of your neck and just breathing is the easiest thing to do when you’re around. I don’t have to think, I don’t have to be anything. You calm me down just by the touch of your hand on my shoulder- and you do the opposite with the same. I miss you when you’re gone but when you come back I am home. Your arms are my furnace,...
December 2010
3 posts
Blinded.
Sometimes if I cover my face just right, so that only a part of me shows, I can pretend that I am somebody else. My eyes would belong to an Egyptian princess and my mouth to a Greek goddess- both powerful women who might have had meaning and ambition in their life. But once the hand falls from my face I am just myself again and the unsatisfactory seeds growing inside the pit of my stomach cause me...
Onward.
So, I guess I did it. For Christmas I’d like the gift of bravery so that I can get through the holidays without wanting to hold his hand or hear his voice every night before I go to sleep. I just want to be strong enough for myself so that I can move on out of this cyclical relationship and eventually find somebody/something steady. It hurts like a biiitchhh, but hey- that doesn’t...
Stuck.
I think I need a therapist. And I’m not even kidding. I feel like the smallest things make me so irritated when it comes to relationships. If I don’t get what I want, I don’t want it at all. It’s only recently that I’ve come to learn how to compromise and even then I’m still not getting it right. My friends say they’ve seen me jump from guy to guy, even if...
November 2010
1 post
Caught.
Let go of me. You’ve got one hand squeezed tight on my lungs, the other on my heart. Tell me where’s the part where this gets better? Do you understand where I’m coming from?
No? I don’t either.
October 2010
2 posts
Words
If we are quiet we can hear, as ears were meant to hear and eyes were meant to see. If we are still, we can feel A heart beating, as your heart beats for me. words are like feathers, soft and lilting, high and low. we are as birds- high and low, wherever you are, I go. So if you speak, speak softly for throbbing stars and ancient moons can hear the language of love. And in the quiet afternoon,...
Keep.
I am insecure, unhappy, and selfish. Then I am safe, ecstatic, and giving. I need to decide which characteristics to keep and throw away in order to be better to myself and to my boyfriend, whom I love. He has done so much for me but my constant uncertainties have caused him to distance himself from me- emotionally and physically. But I swear things will get better, and we WILL be happy. It will...
September 2010
3 posts
Yours.
Whom to blame but I, but I? Of all the sorrows to yield, I try to pave a path already broken, So many words remain unspoken. Upon my breath I whisper slow, and tie a rope so that you don’t go away from here, and away from me i keep you here, so selfishly. Love has carved your name so deep so that I feel you here when e’er I sleep and your fingers splay upon my chest as I close my eyes...
Sam.
Thanks to Angel & about 11 other people I’m following, I’ve decided to also do the 30 Day Letter Challenge too. I doubt I’ll do it every day either but when I remember or have the time, I’ll do it. I guess I’ll start with number 1 (A letter to your best friend.)
Dear Sam, I have no idea if you even go on tumblr anymore and if you’ll see this, but I’m...
Outs!
People come and go. I get that. It’s up to you and the other person to create a friendship that will last through childish drama and immaturity. It takes effort to continue to talk to a person when they are far away, and it’s almost important to hang out every once in a while even when you live close. I’ve been frustrated lately because of friendships and it’s hard to...
August 2010
3 posts
HI!
Leaving to Hawaii tomorrow at 12 in the afternoon (: Yeeyee, first class.
Jealouzzzz
I really try not to be. I think about how he’s the one holding my hand when we walk around and how he calls and texts me and that I’m the one he loves. But all those thoughts slip away every time he leaves the room to talk to her. I know I shouldn’t care, and I pretend not to- but it’s a facade. I do care. I’m just not comfortable with him talking to someone he used...
Good Life.
Oh snaps, it’s the good life (:
My birthday just recently passed, and on that day I found out how absolutely wonderful my friends and family are! Especially my boyfriend & best friend Samantha, who sat through my tears and string of expletives as I cussed out the Asian lady who screwed up my haircut. Salon de Paris? Never again.
This birthday was considerably more enjoyable than the...
July 2010
8 posts
Paradise.
I want to feel the sand beneath my hands, feast my eyes upon an ocean blue. Clouds will part their ways from the sky and leave an opalescent hue.
Mindset.
I noticed I do this thing where after I date someone for a certain amount of time, I start picking out flaws. I know I shouldn’t do this because: I have many flaws myself, it is selfish, it is uncaring, and it isn’t wrong to have flaws. I catch myself doing it or cringing at something someone does, and I reprimand myself. But still I can’t help it. And the worst part of it is...